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Hagen’s POV

I’d always been the guy whose eyes drifted mid-conversation. The kid everyone looked at when they dropped their pen because they seemed physically incapable of not fiddling with it. The one Dad had to put to bed an hour early because it took me twice as long to settle down for the night.

Being distracted was nothing new to me. I was a hyperactive motherfucker who couldn’t focus on any single thing for more than a handful of minutes, maybe five if you were lucky.

That was just who I was, and always would be… in every situation that didn’t involve him.

Things were different with Nikola. Everything was different with Nikola.

With Nik, the world became a very muted place. He told me I brought colour to his, and in a similar way, he brought an irreplaceable calm to mine. It all just stopped buzzing— it stopped being so loud.

The world hushed itself when he was around, and when I looked into his eyes and let myself get lost within them, everything outside of him was replaced by what felt like the tranquil sounds of a lone stream.

The only difference was my passing waters were made up of greys and purples.

Those greys keep me a willing captive now as Nik sifts his fingers through my hair. I would do the same, but there wasn’t a single strand out of Nik’s neatly combed hair, and I wouldn’t disturb that intentional balance.

Instead, I gaze at his face, happy to relearn every detail, starting with his firm, shaven jaw. He’d shaved this morning, as he always did after his shower. I did the same when I remembered, but in the long run, I wasn’t as meticulous as him about those kinds of things.

I could be for him though. If he’d let me do it for him one time, and I was good at it, maybe I could do it all the time.

Excitement blooms within my chest at the prospect, growing so large that it spreads my lips into a smile. Continuing my exploration, I trace my fingers up his arm, noting that his skin is slightly darker than usual. The time we’d spent outside today seemed enough for him to catch the sun and give him a tan.

With his hair down and some swim trunks on, he’d look like a beach boy.

I snort as my eyes wander further up until they find the eyes already waiting for mine. My smile grows larger, and Nikola’s lips quirk so that he can do the same.

I knew from the outside we probably looked like a pair of lovesick fools, but I didn’t know how to stop looking at him or spend time away from him when being this close was a high in itself. Besides, we hadn’t been like this all day.

After Pops’ insane firework display that had lasted for an entire half hour and came accompanied by a setlist he’d timed to end with the last big bang, he’d returned to receive his flowers before he’d settled down and demanded a game of One Word.

Explaining the rules to my friends hadn’t taken long, but explaining why my family was so fucked up after, definitely had.

What had started as a wholesome tale of an invisible ghost named Otto who wanted to explore the stars in search of other ghosts like him had ended with Dictator Otto dying at the hands of his last and favourite son, Baconator, who’d risen up with the resistance of transdimensional shark-people to overthrow his father and put a stop to his tyranny over the universe.

The craziest part was my family had been censoring themselves for my and Josey’s friends.

Karaoke had started some time after that, and while I’d taken the stage for my famous rendition of Hikari Are, I sadly had failed in convincing Nikola to do the same. The world deserved to hear his awesome voice, but Nik refused to share his talent.

I’d begged and begged, even pulling out the birthday card until he said he only sang for me. Then I’d stopped begging because it was hard to speak when butterflies stormed your stomach while you tried to hide the hard-on in your pants.

Unfortunately for us, the others had filled the space he’d left behind, and we were subjected to listening to the people closest to us try to sing— ‘try’ because we quickly discovered the devastating news that between all our families and friends, 94.444% of them couldn’t sing.

We had two exceptions; Ruben and Uncle Emitt, and while Ruben had sounded fucking amazing singing Love on the Brain by Rihanna, Uncle Emitt choosing to use his voice to sing Cover Girl by RuPaul was certainly… something.

Things had snowballed from there into various forms of chaos that Nik and I watched from the sidelines underneath the safety of his bubble. He couldn’t do with all the noise, and I couldn’t do without him, so while we joined in where we could, and I ate my weight in toasted marshmallows, in the spaces in between, there was only us.

At some point, I’d twisted over so that I was lying on his chest. It gave me an unfettered view of his handsome face and bright eyes that had held me captive while we cuddled and talked, laughed and loved.

I take full advantage of my position now as I sit up just enough to peck his lips.

I do it only because— something I’d discovered today? When I kissed Nikola in front of other people, he became terribly flustered. It was like he couldn’t believe what happened, and in that moment of surprise, he rebooted himself and then tried to land his consciousness back on Earth.

Every landing is a shaky one, and this one is no different as he blinks in an effort to take off his rocket’s engines.

“What was that for?” He asks when he finally remembers how to breathe.

My smile shifts into a smirk as I tilt my head, “Shouldn’t you already know?”

Nikola’s brow twitches, “Do not tease me.”

“I just wanted to,” I answer seriously, making Nikola’s frown disappear.

His formerly troubled grey eyes soften and fill with a light that makes them sparkle like I’ve never seen before. For a second, they look almost gold like mine, but I’m not sure if that’s in my head or from the fairy lights hung over our heads.

“Then I encourage you to do as you wish more often,” he replies with the utmost seriousness.

I blurt a laugh as I shake my head, “You say that now, but when I did what I wanted earlier, you were pissed.”

Nikola’s frown returns and brings a glare with it as he says, “That was different. You did the one thing I do not like.”

“Yeah, but it’s also the one thing you like more than you dislike it, right?”

Nikola huffs and forces his gaze away from mine, looking at everyone else as if he cares what they’re doing. He struggles to keep the pretence up, leaving me to relish in every second I get to watch him waver.

To a degree, I was sorry for taking off on Nikola, but that was a very small degree. It wasn’t like I was actually trying to run from him; we both knew I could never do that. It’d just been for fun. Plus, it was hard to regret something when it triggered one of the hottest experiences of my life.

I give it a ten outta ten. No notes. It was amazing! — Zyair interrupts enthusiastically — he was just like Neo, except when Neo caught me, he actually fucked me.

You did that shit with Neo?!? — I ask in a near sputter.

I can practically feel Zyair rolling his eyes — Obviously, Hagen. I told you he fucked me against a tree. How did you think we got there?!?

(A/N — yes, you will still get an extra in this book to see Neo and Zyair’s first fuck)

I don’t know — I reply honestly — Teleportation?

Zyair cackles almost wickedly — Oh we saved that for the good stuff.

I frown, suddenly very jealous of my own wolf.

I try not to be because I knew Nik and I fucked more than them, and realistically we couldn’t just fuck out there in the maze, but I still end up jealous as fuck. Unlike Zyair, Nik and I hadn’t gotten up to nearly half of the things I’d been hoping for, but I guess what we had done had opened my already peeling eyes to what we could do together.

Despite how unconventional Nik and I’s relationship was, the whole BDSM thing was still hard for me to accept. In some ways I could see how it might work for us, but in other ways, it just terrified me. Or it used to. That had been the case until tonight when I’d gotten a taste of what I’d been reading about in secret.

Nik didn’t know it yet, but he wasn’t the only one learning about that stuff, but it wasn’t that I’d been looking for it!

You totally were — Zyair denies without hesitation.

Okay, so maybe I’d purposefully gone into Nikola’s desk in search of the little notebook he kept at his side when he was researching all things kink, but it wasn’t my fault that I’d ended up there!

I was a curious being, and I just wanted to know what he was learning! Plus, it’d been stupidly easy to peep without him knowing when he’d been so distracted preparing everything for my surprise.

I’d only really started because I’d felt a little out of the loop with him doing it all on his own. When Nik told me he would wait until I was ready, he’d meant it, but that hadn’t stopped him from looking into it on his own. Soooo, maybe I started to snoop a little just to keep up, and then a lot. That was allowed in a relationship like ours!

To my surprise, what I’d found hadn’t been so scary. It hadn’t been scary at all. Actually, it was boring as fuck since it was all informative and shit, but that was Nik. When he learned something, he learned every single detail about it.

I’d ended up flipping through a good two-thirds of his notes before I stumbled upon the good stuff. And when I said good stuff, I meant good stuff.

Stuff like soft limits and hard limits because apparently those were different. Things like dom responsibilities and sub responsibilities, ‘cause it wasn’t all about sex. It could literally be a lifestyle if you wanted it to be. Then there were things like scenes, which were a special space to really get one’s kink on within the perimeters of the pre-established rules.

And speaking of the rules, we already had a lot of the base ones going on between us. Well, kind of, they were adaptive. There wasn’t one set of rules everyone had to listen to, though Nikola had highlighted and underlined the ones he was particularly interested in.

There were sweet ones, like us checking in at the end of the day and me giving him the right to take me out of situations he thought were harmful to me. Then there were ones that had my chest tightening, like kneeling at his feet before a scene and Nik being the one to give me permission to cum.

Surprisingly, I found that I liked almost all of them, even while a part of me knew I wouldn’t always listen to them. If I didn’t, I’d get in trouble, but that’s what the punishments were for, and those didn’t have to include whips and chains. They could be something as simple as having to sit in a corner, which I didn’t think I could agree to cause I’d go completely mad.

All in all, it didn’t sound awful, in fact… it sounded pretty… good?

There were a lot of things I wanted, like the different types of play Nikola had found, and bondage but ones where he used magic instead of rope, rewards and punishments, and most of all, letting him have a hand in helping me in life, ‘cause Goddess knew I needed it.

There was also the list of honorifics he’d jotted down which—

“Hagen.”

Jerking, I blink quickly until my gaze lands on the pair standing across from me. Ruben stands in front of Max with a knowing smirk on his lips, while Max wisely stays a few steps back, though he looks way too amused as he grins at me.

I sit up but keep my hands on Nik’s leg as I look between them, “Yeah? Sorry. Is everything okay?”

“Yeah, everything fine. Yuh parents seh wi cah stay here for di night, suh wi guhin inside fi a bit, suh Peta cah show wi where tuh leave wi things,” he explains with a gesture over his shoulder. Peter waits a few paces away with a large smile. He waves, and Nik and I don’t hesitate to return it.

“We’re just letting you know in case we don’t see you before you slip off,” Max explains with a pointed look. “There’s a bet going around about how long you two’ll last.”

“What’s the longest?” I ask.

“Another twenty minutes.”

“That’s optimistic,” Nikola deadpans, making me snort as he thumbs my cheek.

“Alright, well, if we do fuck off, thanks for coming. I really really appreciate it guys, you have no idea.”

Ruben grins and Max does the same, and for the first time today, it doesn’t irk me to see him smile.

Speak for yourself — Zyair snarls with a huff. I hate the sight of dirty teeth.

Easy, Zyair. Easy — I shush. He’s still our friend.

Zyair huffs, clearly not willing to hear anything about Max anytime soon.

“It’s bin fun,” Ruben replies, “an wi ain’t even see Peter’s book collection yet, him says its crazy.”

“That it is,” I reply with a chuckle. “Enjoy it for me.”

“We will,” Max replies as he and Ruben back away. “Enjoy Nik for me.”

I surge forward with hands already stretched out to curl around Max’s scrawny neck, but Nikola catches me before I can kill the fucker. He jumps back, laughing as he skips away— fucking skips!— away to Peter, as if knew the family’s ‘no violence around Peter rule’ and thinks that it will save him.

It won’t. I’ll gouge his fucking eyes out.

“It’s a joke, Hagen!” Max shouts from Peter’s side. “You can’t react so much, or I won’t be able to stop.”

I’ll stop his heart — Zyair seethes while he paces within us. I’ll make sure it never beats again!

“Calm down, pup,” Nikola whispers while he bounds my hands in my lap with one hand and pets me with the other. I jerk away, but he only tightens his grip and wraps himself around me until I’m forced to relax. “He’s teasing you.”

“Trollin,” Ruben corrects unhelpfully as he follows Max’s path to Peter. “He trollin yuh.”

Nikola hums his agreement, “He does not truly mean it.”

“I don’t fucking care. I’ll fucking kill him,” I snap as I glare at the friend who might just turn me into a murderer. “You’re mine.”

Unaware of the bounty he’s just put on his own head, Max falls into step between Ruben and Peter and laughs the whole way. I glare at him until he disappears inside the house, only barely managing to cage my growl, but its a near thing. When he’s out of sight and his revolting scent goes with him, I return my gaze to my mate’s with a scorching glare.

I mean to yell at him for holding me back, but I freeze when I meet his eyes. They’re glowing with his uncapped arousal.

“Twenty minutes,” he breathes with a hoarse laugh. “…They’ll be lucky if we manage another five.”

My heart jolts as my mouth suddenly grows dry.

Max slips from my mind completely as Nikola stands and lifts me with him. My lips part, but when Nik pulls me flush against him, I lose the breath in my lungs. Wide-eyed, I stare up at him as he leans closer, moving so slowly that my heart convulses like we’re back in that maze. And just remembering that feral end has lust bottoming out within my stomach.

Nikola’s gaze immediately flares.

“I have never witnessed you act so possessively over me.”

I feel my eyebrows dip, “You have. You almost sent me mad with the shit you were pulling in that castle.”

“That was different,” he explains while he slips a finger beneath the hem of my shirt. I suck in a short breath, and the corner of his lips tip upwards. “I did not let myself believe your advances were true then. I was scared to trust them. I know now that they are and—” he pauses to drop his gaze to my lips. I lick them, and his eyes darken. “You’ve had enough of the festivities, yes?”

I nod, slowly at first and then like a flicked bobblehead.

Nikola swallows. I struggle not to track the moment with my tongue.

“Then let us say our goodbyes and take our leave.”

Thank you Goddess, and bless you, Max, you fucking asshole!

Nik leads the way across the yard, using subtle gusts of wind to move any lone items out of our way as he walks us right up to our parents. They’re all lounging on mismatched beanbags, sharing smiles and laughs, and after all that’s happened, it’s probably the best gift I’ve received for the whole day.

Nikola always came first— that would never change. But that didn’t mean that I wanted us to be the reason our parents lost this.

I’d grown up hearing the stories of how they met, became friends, and then, family. Against all odds, they loved each other and things were good until we came along, then it wasn’t. Things after went to shit, and everyone fucked up, but they tried. They had all tried.

I just hoped that they’d be able to forgive each other for the mistakes they made along the way, just as Nik and I had learned to forgive each other. Lucky for us, by the looks of things, they’re already on their way.

“Well, hello,” Aunty Kat greets as she looks up and passes her slitted gaze between us. “How nice of you to remember our existence, Nikola.”

“I’m not doing this right now,” Nikola states without pause. “I don’t have time for it.”

Hot. That was unreasonably hot.

“Are you fucking kidding me!” Pops curses under his breath. “I had fifty on y’all at least making it to ten o’clock.” He glares at me with invisible bullets in his eyes, “You couldn’t do this one thing for me, Hagen? You couldn’t find some damn self-control?”

“Nope,” I reply, grinning as he fake gags. “We just came over to say bye and thanks for everything today.”

“Yes,” Nikola agrees without prompt. “Thank you for all following the programme so I could make this possible.”

“You’re welcome,” Dad replies, chuckling while he covers Pops’ rolling eyes. “Thank you for putting so much effort into this for the twins.”

Nik’s brows dip in a telltale frown, “I did this for—”

“We know,” I cut in with a gentle smile. “No need to say it aloud.”

So far, Nik and Josey hadn’t butted heads, which was a rare thing and I intended to make sure we carried that win all the way home. It’s easy too since Josey’s off her fucking rocker and having the time of her life with her friends.

I glance at her and snort when I spot her in the middle of an arm wrestling competition with Jayson. She’s surprisingly holding her own, considering that she’s wasted, and Levi is trying to encourage Jayson with a particularly large grape.

“You can’t leave without getting your gift,” Aunty K says, sending Uncle Apollos a pointed look. He stands, and surprisingly, so does she. “It’s inside. Come on, let’s get it.”

Sirens sound in my head, and they’re fucking loud.

“Use magic to retrieve it,” Nikola retorts as he pulls me a little behind him. “There’s no need for us all to go.”

“No, but we’re clearly plotting to talk to Hagen in private, storm,” Aunty Kat replies in a drawl. “You think I’d willingly walk anywhere? So how about you stay here and talk to Julian and Aiden about… I don’t know, the newest solar system you’ve found, and we’ll be back before you know it.”

Nik and I shift our gazes down to my Dads, who both blink back up at us. The old man shrugs while Dad stares at Nikola as if he is ready to harvest his mind.

Nikola’s frown deepens. He clearly wasn’t any more enthused about separating than I was, but then again, he was always more frisky when we were apart for some time.

Are you really about to potentially sacrifice your life for good dick? — Zyair pipes up with a gasp that’s not quite horrified but something close to it.

Yes.

I’m so proud of the man you’ve become — he whispers with a tearful sniff — Godspeed, my horny grasshopper.

“Okay,” I say before I unwind Nik and I’s fingers.

Nik’s lips fall open as a shriek of panic rattles through our link. It’s strong enough that I almost feel bad, but I’d make up for it later. Besides, his parents weren’t actually going to hurt me

…yeah. They wouldn’t.

“Let’s go before he kills us,” Aunty Kat says, already walking ahead.

I skip forward, mouthing a ‘sorry’ to my mournful mate while Dad already starts asking him about something my brain physically can not comprehend.

I find myself on the same path Max and Ruben had taken to get inside the house, only instead of heading to the rooms upstairs, we go to the kitchen. There are leftovers everywhere, enough to keep me full for a few days, but I don’t let myself get distracted as Uncle Apollos grabs a sealed box from the counter and holds it out for me.

It’s the cake they arrived with.

“It’s your favourite. Chocolate,” he explains as he hands it over. “We thought you’d want the whole thing for yourself.”

“I do,” I manage. Am I drooling? I lick my lips quickly. “Thanks.”

I look at them, and they look at me. It’s awkward, painfully so, but it’s not scary anymore which is a plus I guess. ‘Slow and steady wins the race’ and all that shit. It’s still awkward as fuck.

“I’m bad at small talk so I’m just going to dive in,” Aunty Kat says as she props her hip against the counter. “The last time we saw you, we were in the castle with Lincoln and Kalem. But before that, we’d been trying to make Nikola see reason about the two of you and your relationship.”

I bristle, feeling my blood turn cold.

“Easy, Hagen,” she says, holding her hands up. “I’m not even done, and you’re—” she freezes and then sighs, “Gods, help us. Now Nik is trying to break through the barrier.”

“You put up a barrier?” I gawk, more so because I hadn’t even realised.

“Yes,” she replies while her eyes glow before they narrow with effort. “Well, we don’t have much time, so— what I was going to say was that back then, we were trying to keep the two of you apart because even while you said you loved him, it was hard to imagine that you would ever love him as much as he loves you.”

“We thought he’d be the one always chasing after you, after what you want and sacrificing himself just to make it happen,” Uncle Apollos continues. “He loves you so much, Hagen. He always has.”

“I know,” I mumble as my fingers curl around the box’s edge. “But I love him just as much.”

“We know,” Aunty Kat replies, making my eyes widen as I watch her expression transform into something warm. “We saw you together today. You—” she shakes her head as she sighs softly, “You couldn’t keep your eyes off him.”

I shift, feeling my cheeks heat, “Well, yeah.”

“You two were joined like this,” she continues, locking her two index fingers together. “There was no him without you, no you without him. You two move like no pair of mates I’ve ever seen, and I’ve lived around you smelly lot for long enough to know mates pretty well.”

That forces a chuckle from my lips as I hesitantly return her smile

“We almost didn’t come today because we were scared being here might make matters worse,” Uncle Apollos continues carefully. “In the castle, things between us were…”

“Deadly. Literally.” I fill in. He blanches until I smile. “It’s okay. I’m not mad about it.”

“They were not good,” he agrees as he fills the space beside his mate. “We didn’t want to bring that here, but then Nikola asked, and I’m so glad that he did. If we hadn’t come today, we would have missed out on this. We would not have seen what the two of you look like together. We…” he pauses as a shine comes over his eyes. “We wouldn’t have seen how loved our son is.”

I cling to the box’s solid edges as a wild torrent of emotions bubbles up inside of me. It’s a concoction of satisfaction, pride and elation, and after all I’d endured in that castle just to make Nikola see me again, it feels so damn good that they’d finally seen my love for him too.

“Good,” I reply, after swallowing around the lump in my throat. “I’m glad you know it’s real now, that I’m crazy about him.”

“We do,” Aunty Kat replies with a nod.

“And I’m really glad you came. It meant a lot to all of us. I hope… I really hope you guys stick around. We’ve all missed you.”

“All of you?” Uncle Apollos asks, his gaze nervous as it searches mine.

“All of us,” I promise. “We really are fine. I know you were just trying to protect him, and I love him enough to appreciate that.”

Blowing out a breath, he nods firmly before his lips spread into a bright grin I know all too well. A second later, he steps forward, an unspoken question in his eyes. I set my cake down and the moment my hands are free, he pulls me into a hug.

It feels so good, like pack and family all in one.

I’d been prepared to lose thi if it meant I could have Nikola, but it was nice to have it back. Uncle Apollos had always been kind to me, which was why it’d hurt when he hadn’t been, but I didn’t hate him for it. How could I, when in so many ways, I’d been the one to push his hand?

We step back, and I’m about to force Aunty Kat into a hug too but when a loud crack sounds around us, she lives to see another day.

The kitchen looked normal to me, but I quickly realise that what I thought was reality was definitely not as a literal crack forms in one of the walls and splinters until clumps of this weird simulation shit fall apart. With a loud snap, the fake shell world breaks apart like glass, leaving behind the actual kitchen where Nikola stands huffing in the doorway.

He looks pissed.
He is also inappropriately attractive right now.

“We were just talking,” Aunty Kat begins, but Nik’s standing in front of me and glaring daggers at them before she even finishes. “Jesus, you are so dramatic.”

“Why would you put up a barrier?” He growls so low it makes my heart jump in my chest.

Hot.

“To talk to him,” she replies while curling a strand of hair around a finger.

“You needed a barrier to have a conversation?” Nikola grinds out, and yeah, something’s wrong with me fundamentally ‘cause watching this is doing crazy stuff to me.

Throwing her hands up, Aunty Kat pushes off the counter and heads for the door, “This is what I get for being nice.” Glancing back, she sends a smile my way, “We’ll see you soon, Hagen. But it was nice catching up. Ya know, before that one ruined it”

“Yeah,” I reply with a smile of my own.

“Apollos,” she calls, leaving her hand up. “Let’s run before our son tries to kill us.”

Uncle Apollos quickly takes her hand, bringing it to his lips for a kiss as he lets himself be dragged away. We get a “Bye, boys” and a wave over his shoulder before they both disappear.

Nikola swirls on me the moment they’re gone, checking me all over as if he’d lost me in battle. “Are you okay? What did they do to you? Was that truly just a conversation?”

I can’t help but smile as I stare at him. “Yeah, I’m all good, and they really just wanted to talk. Oh, and to give me cake!” I lift the box between us, “They’re just happy that I proved them wrong, and they wanted to say that.”

Nikola stills, looking both confused and shocked, but also, pleased. Very pleased.

“Really?” He asks after a moment.

“Yes, really,” I reply as I spread my hands over his chest. “They’re happy for us, and they like us together.”

Nikola blinks twice before his lips twitch, and a ripple of his elation travels through our link, “That is good.”

“Yes, it is,” I confirm. “So there was no need for you to get all ‘grr’, but I must say, I didn’t mind it at all. It was hot as fuck.”

Nikola frowns at me before his greyed eyes narrow with suspicion, “Is that why you agreed so easily to go with them when you knew I wanted you home?”

I shrug as I lean closer, teasing his lips with the edge of mine, “If I say yes, will you finally take me home and fuck me?”

Nikola’s eyes glow a second before his magic swells within my veins and tugs us from one space to the next. There’s a laugh on my lips that travels with us, but Nikola silences it the moment he tugs my head back and reintroduces his lips to mine.

Pleasure immediately sparks in my veins, starting a fire that engulfs my entire body and lights my world up while it’s at it.

I groan as I drape my arms over his shoulders and slip my fingers into his hair. I curl them around the strands, grabbing fistfuls to tug him closer and make him groan as he backs me into something hard. We break for a shared gasp before our mouths come together again.

There’s only his firm body, rushed breaths, his musky scent and my desperate need for more.

I tug, and he pulls, and we fall.

Large hands settle on my hips and grip me firmly until I shiver, and then they tug me closer. I’m strong, but in Nikola’s hands, I feel weak, like I’m going up against something I have no chance of beating.

My dick bucks enthusiastically at the prospect, but not so soon. It wasn’t going to give in so easily.

Sliding my leg between Nik’s, I bring our cocks together, and Nik doesn’t hesitate to thrust into me. It drives me up against whatever’s digging into my back and delivers glorious friction straight to my cock.

Pleasure crashes through me, making my world spin before I throw my head back to moan. Nik drags his lips from mine and dips low to kiss his way down my neck. My eyes roll as we rock against one another, dry humping in the middle of— fuck, I don’t even know where we are, but it doesn’t matter.

Nikola’s cock grinding against mine is fucking amazing, and I don’t want it to stop.

His lips travel lower and lower. Kissing, biting and sucking until they find my highest mark. I whimper the second his lips brush the sensitive skin and then cry out as he sucks on it with mercy.

I jerk against him, but he keeps me in place, using the fingers around my neck to brush my scent glands until the world falls in on itself as his smoky scent fills my very being. Then there’s only Nikola. Nikola. Nikola.

“Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!” I moan as I squirm beneath him. I lean into the touch, into him, and almost sob at how good it feels. “Nik!”

“Hated hiding them today,” he breathes when he releases the pulsing spot and drags his tongue along the next instead. I see spots as he teases them with his teeth, “I wanted everyone to see them.”

“Ugh! Fuck,” I groan as his hands dig into my hips. “They will.” Nik travels back up, finding my lips again before he parts to meet my eyes, “I promise.”

Grey eyes glow bright like they’re illuminated by a full moon before Nikola brings his mouth back down over mine. I part my lips without instruction, and Nik immediately slips his tongue into my mouth. I welcome him, moaning even louder as he licks over my tongue and steals the air from my lungs.

Nikola grunts his approval before those hands grip my hips and hoist me up, setting me down on something wide and unfamiliar. I frown and peek one eye open to glance around, but I can’t see a damn thing.

I pull back but barely manage to capture a glimpse of cream walls before Nikola is tugging me back in with a warning growl. It goes straight to my cock, but my mind stalls on the cream walls.

Nowhere I knew how cream walls.

“Nik,” I pant as I try to part us, but then Nik’s hands are on my thighs and prying them apart, and fuckkkk, I love his hands on me. He keeps them there, squeezing them and making me jolt in his arms as I forget all about cream and walls, and cream coloured walls.

I drag him closer, trying to haul him on top of me, but Nikola stands where he was and instead drags me into him so that we’re grinding together again. I hear fabric tear, feel pain bloom at my hips along with the pleasure in my cock, and it feels so. fucking. good. Then his hands are sliding down and gripping my ass and—

“Goddess have— f-fuck!” I moan as I struggle not to cum on the spot.

I’d been waiting all night for this, all week really, and I was more than ready to make up for lost time.

Grinding up against Nikola, I feel my eyes roll behind their sockets as Nikola blesses me with the friction I’d been dying for from the moment he’d tackled me and bit into my neck. I grind up against his cock, and shudder beneath him as he gropes my ass until he’s got me lifted off the table.

“Could cum… like this,” I pant between kisses. Nikola moans and my cock fucking leaks for him, “I c-could cum… just like… this.”

I can, if he keeps this up, but Nikola doesn’t give me the chance to prove it to him. He draws back, taking his lips from mine as he puts me back on the table with a grunt.

I try to bring him back, but he forces me down by my chest so that I’m splayed out for him. I suck in a rough breath as I try to blink past my blurring vision, but Nikola doesn’t let me settle.

He plucks at my fly and tugs at my zipper, unleashing the distinct sound of the slider gliding down that makes me hiccup. It stops with a thump, and Nik quickly drags my boxers down just enough for him to fish out my leaking cock.

The second his fingers wrap around my length, I see double.

“Always so wet for me,” he growls as he gives my cock a tug.

“Fuck, Nik…” I groan as I lift my head to try and catch a glimpse. He’s crouched between my legs down, squatting while he fists my cock in his large hand. His grey eyes flick up, meeting mine and forcing me to keep them as he spreads his lips and swallows me down. “Good Goddess!”

My cock jerks in his mouth, wetting his tongue with fresh precum as my mind buckles under the ecstasy. Nikola hums around me, making my toes curl as the vibrations rush down my spine.

More of that. I needed so much more of that.

“That’s good,” I pant while I watch him suck my cock. “That’s…so fucking good.”

It’s fucking hypnotic, and it makes my balls tighten as he takes in and out of his wet heat. Propping one hand behind me, I reach down with twitching fingers to delve my fingers back into his hair while my legs spread wider. I moan as I watch him suck me between my already shaking legs. I’m close. Face heating, I curl one foot around the table’s legs to keep still, and—

Wait.

Table legs?

Looking down, I frown as my brain finally registers the deep brown table beneath us, and then I frezze, cause while I register it, I definitely do not recognise it for shit.

“What the fuck?” I mouth before I look up, not at Nik, but at what’s behind him. “What. The. Fuck?!”

Nik freezes, stopping his beautiful assault on my dick to frown at me, “What?”

The word comes out gravelled around his pants and laced with annoyance that makes him sound so fucking sexy that I almost forget what I’d said.

But no. I couldn’t when I looked around and found us in the foyer of a house I did not recognise, that had shoes in a grey rack and lights on everywhere.

“Where are we?” I whisper in case the owner is here.

Fuck, what if they were, and we were just getting it on, on their table? Double fuck, what if they weren’t, and they walked in and saw us getting it on, on their table?!

Nikola blinks for three of the longest seconds of my life before his frown clears, “Oh, yes. I suppose I didn’t tell you about this.”

“About what?!” I baulk shoving him back so that I can sit up.

Dismayed, Nikola releases my cock and brings himself up from his squatted position. He refuses to step back or give me room to breathe properly as he rests his hands on either side of me and leans in. I look at him expectantly and try not to focus on the fact that I’m sporting wood in the open air.

“You know I was looking for a home for us,” he begins neutrally. “One we could use within the pack?”

I nod.

“I did look, and they were all inadequate. In the end, I thought it best to make one instead,” he explains nonchalantly. “I designed it how I thought we both might love it, but it is open to change and very easily adjustable if you preferred something else, whether that was in layout, design or the entire structure.”

“Wait,” I start, only to say something, but sadly, nothing else comes out. “Wait. Wait. Wait.” I knew other words. I did! “You’re saying… this is our place?”

“Yes, if you like it and want it,” he replies like it’s nothing. Like we’re talking about if I want a fucking bag of chips and not an entire house.

I stare at Nikola, just fucking stare because what else did you do in a situation like this?

“I was going to wait until your actual birthday to show you,” he adds when I don’t say anything. “But my parents are likely returning to their home for the night, and I did not want to fuck you with them there.”

“I—”

I’m fucking speechless. Really and truly speechless.

Shifting my gaze from my crazy fucking mate, I try to get a better look at the place from where we are. We’re in the entryway, which is wider than most, to the point that it can hold a table— the table I’m currently on.

It’s placed in the centre of the hallway, which opens up to the left and right. On the right waits a living room, stacked with a wall of anime titles I can recognise from here, and on the left is a dining table big enough to fit everyone in our family.

The table Nik had hoisted me onto was empty except for the envelope waiting at the very end and a box I’d been given only a little while ago.

“That is your cake, and that is your letter,” Nikola explains following my line of sight. “I can give it to you now, but I admit, I would rather have sex.”

Forcing my gaze back to Nikola, I stare at him with my mouth hanging wide open and absolutely no clue how to shut it.

Nikola frowns.

He opens his mouth, then closes it.

His frown deepens, and he repeats the process.

“Are you upset?” He asks.

I shake my head. I could do stuff with my head.

“Surprised, then?” He hazards.

I nod.

“Do you still want to have sex?”

I laugh.

I fucking laugh, and when Nikola jerks, I laugh even harder. I laugh until my throat cages up, and they barely come out. I laugh until my stomach hurts, and my lungs cry for help. I laugh until tears fill my eyes and stream down my face, and then I realise I’m not cry-laughing, but cry-crying because this is fucking…

Goddess, how did he keep getting better? How did he do it?

How was it possible, and how on Earth did I, of all people, get to have it all?

“Is that a no?” Nikola asks with an expression so troubled I know he’s about to start panicking.

“No,” I answer as I quickly wipe at my tears. I smile at my frightened mate and giggle as I wrap my arms around his neck. “Yes, I still want to have sex, but not here. I want you to fuck me in our new bed. We can christen the whole place after that.”

Nikola’s eyes widen, making him look adorably surprised.

“That’s assuming there’s a bed up there?”

“There is,” he confirms.

“Good,” I retort, but he doesn’t move. He’s still in semi-shock.

“Come on, Nik,” I prompt as I wrap my legs around his waist. “Take me upstairs and fuck me. I’ve waited long enough.”

Nikola does not need to be told again. He lifts me up, making me laugh again as he all but dashes for our room, which is apparently up a flight of stairs. He carries me the whole way without breaking a sweat and only stumbles while I suck his ear into my mouth.

He manages to grab the railing before we go tumbling down.

“Wait,” he begs in a rasp as he tries to steady me. “Please.”

“Fine,” I whisper, choosing to have mercy while I try to catch glimpses of our home as we go.

It’s amazing. No, it’s fucking beautiful, and it’s littered with all Nikola’s thoughtful touches, like framed pictures on the walls of our family and several cat trees tucked into random corners for Wreck. I even spot Knots’ favourite puzzle feeders, and as we pass a room with a yoga mat already splayed out, I feel tears well in my eyes all over again.

This was really it, really us, and I… Goddess, I fucking love it.

I love him.

Unfortunately, I don’t get to see much of our room, and it’s not because of the tears. It’s because as Nikola lays me down and climbs on top of me, I don’t want to see or think of anything else but him.

He’s given me the best birthday of my life, and I can’t thank him enough for it. I can’t give him nearly as much as he gives me, but I want to try. Desperately. I want to give him everything.

I want to give him me.

“You’re crying again, and this time, I do not think it’s out of shock,” Nikola comments as he stares down at me through his twitching brows.

“No, it’s not,” I admit, but I push the mushy feelings away to smirk up at him. “It’s from frustration ‘cause I’ve asked you to fuck me twice now and you haven’t done it yet.”

Nikola blinks, startled, and I take advantage of the momentary lapse to wrap my fingers around my cock. I jerk it and groan as pleasure races up my spine, sending tingles all the way to the tips of my toes. I get one stroke in before his hand wraps around my wrist in a grip so tight it hurts.

Grey eyes turn almost black as Nikola glares down at me, “You— Why do you insist on misbehaving today?”

I groan as I squeeze myself. My balls tighten, and my hole clenches.

I needed him inside of me. Now.

I shift my hips, tilting them up while I grin at him, “Maybe cause you’re not taking care of things like you should… taking care of me like you should.”

Nikola’s nostrils flare as he huffs, and that glare turns wonderful deadly.

He’s inching towards pissed, and I know I’m poking the bear, but if I shouldn’t be, then why is it so fun?

“You’re— you are—”

“I am?” I mock, tilting my head.

A growl rumbles from Nikola’s chest, making my dick twitch between my fingers as he asks, “You are seeking to rile me. Why?”

“Why aren’t you inside of me already?” I retort, leaning up to catch his lips for a kiss. He pulls back with a snarl, but that only makes me harder. “I guess we both have questions we want answers to.”

Nikola stares at me, looking lost between wanting to kiss me and kill me. Is it bad that I want both?

“So, are you going to fuck me or do I have keep aski—”

Nikola’s hand wraps around my neck, choking the words from my tongue as he growls above me. My hand’s free now, but I don’t think to move it as pure bliss rockets through me, leaving me leaking all over my fingers.

Nikola doesn’t let me breathe. He fists my neck at its sides enough that I can’t. I have to work with what little I have in my lungs, and he watches me as it stretches out until I’m really choking and I need—

Fingers easing, Nik lets me have one small gasp before he tightens his fingers again, leaving me floundering, leaving me floating, and it’s—

I rasp a broken moan as I stare up at him with hearts in my ears. I love him. Goddess, I fucking love him.

“Brat,” he hisses above me. His canines are out and then gleam as he glares at me. “That’s what they call them. Submissives like you. Brats.”

I suck in a breath, only I can’t breathe with Nik choking me.

My heart lurches, beating like it’s trying to escape as I squirm beneath him.

Brat.

Heat rushes up my neck and floods my cheeks as the word swirls around my mind.

“You give trouble,” he mutters through his clenched teeth. “You fight back just because you can. You know the rules and break them anyway. You misbehave because you enjoy it. You, Hagen, are a brat.”

My cock jerks in my hand, and I think I’m about to cum.

My vision swims and I don’t know if I’m about to pass out or cum, but before I can do either, Nikola releases me again. I suck in a desperate lungful only to choke as the fresh air burns my lungs.

Nikola purrs as if pleased as he leans close and licks a path over my jaw, “Stroke yourself.”

“W-What?” I wheeze as I try to blink away the moisture gathering within my eyes.

“Your hand is on your cock,” he murmurs without pause. “Use it. Now.”

I do. My hand starts moving on its own volition, stroking quickly as I stare at Nik.

“Good,” he praises as his lips spread into a sinister smile. “You see how good you can be for me when you listen, pup.”

I can’t breathe again. I can’t fucking breathe and it has nothing to do with Nikola’s hand this time. It’s because of the distorted mix of pleasure and indignation that swells inside of me.

“That’s it,” he whispers while his fingers brush over my marks. “Be good, and I’ll let you make yourself cum.”

My face burns so hot I feel dizzy, but I can’t stop. I can’t stop stroking my cock, and I don’t know if it’s because of Nik’s words or how fucking good it feels. I’m so close too, so close to the edge that I can almost taste my orgasm.

I think Nik will give it to me too; he won’t stop me, but he’d use it. Use it to taunt me, and he’d already done enough of that as it was.

“I-I’m doing this… because I want to,” I rasp after swallowing twice. It’s a lie, and we both know it. Nikola’s lips part to say as much, but I’m not done. “Because I have to….because you still haven’t… fucked me yet.”

That tears the smile straight from Nikola’s lips. I adopt it happily as I bring my hand to a reluctant stop.

I curse as the pleasure bottles itself and settles right at my groin, so close and now so fucking far. It almost hurts, so I make sure to make it worth it.

“So…” I pant as I stare up at him, at the twitch in his eye, his tightly clenched jaw and the pure rage on his face. “…when are you going to do it, or do I have to ask again?”

.

.

.

Nikola closes his eyes and inhales deeply through his mouth.

He’s trying to find a calm, to think this through so that he doesn’t act irrationally. It’s sweet, especially because I love him for it, only now I didn’t want that side of him.

I wanted the other side of him.
The feral one that forgot how to be all prim and proper.
The one that lost control.

Lucky for me, I knew exactly how to coax him out. The only thing was that if I did now, there would be no taking it back. I’d be yanking open the door Nikola was purposefully keeping shut so that I could take my time with this.

Maybe I shouldn’t do it.

Maybe I should be careful, but fuck… if he was calling me a ‘brat’, then all bets were off, and if that was what I was, then I guess I should live up to my full potential.

Besides, the door had been pried open from the moment I’d picked up Nikola’s little black book.

“Nikola,” I sing with a sigh. I reach up to poke his cheek. His eyes pop open, and he glares at me, but it only makes me smile. “Should I ask nicely this time?”

“Hagen,” he warns, barely sounding like himself.

“I know, but I’m doing it, so listen closely,” I start, taking Nikola’s chin in hand and forcing him to look at me. My lips part, but I waver a little as nervousness ties my tongue.

Nikola frowns, but I don’t let myself bitch out. I was fucking doing this.

“Can you…” Fuck this was way harder than I thought.

Just fucking say it! Come on!

“I… I’ve waited all day, so can you please…” I swallow, barely managing to hold his gaze as my voice grows quieter with each word, “can… can you please fuck me…… Sir?”

I wasn’t sure if it would be the right fit.

There were so many, and they all seemed to mean different things, but from all the ones I’d read and mouthed aloud when I was alone, only one had felt right.

Sir.

It feels even better now as I say it to Nik rather than to the imaginary ears in a quiet room. It makes my body tingle and my insides squirm as I try not to look away from Nikola. It’s hard though because just as good as it feels, it makes me feel small and… really fucking turned on, because Sir to him from my lips when I was older than him was… fuck, it was heady as fuck.

Nikola doesn’t move.

Nikola does not breathe.

He remains perfectly still over me with his grey eyes shot wide and his side of the bond wiped utterly blank.

I shift, suddenly nervous, and dart my gaze away until firm fingers find my chin and force my eyes back up.

Colours flit through Nikola’s eyes, and not just grey and purple. Colours I don’t think I even know float through his irises as he stares down at me, like something else in fake skin.

A cold shiver races down my spine.

“…What did you just say?”

My chest constricts, closening in around my heart while it pounds within my chest. It’s so loud that I can hear it thumping in my ears and filling the entire room.

Did he like it? Did he hate it? I couldn’t tell.

I’d thought he’d love it— assumed he would really, but maybe I’d been wrong. Maybe this wasn’t the right time, or I’d pushed too far, or maybe he just didn’t like that one.

“Hagen,” he whispers, so low it silences every other thought. He stares right at my soul, “What did you just call me?”

Panicked…

….I shrug.

Nikola’s jaw clenches so tightly something cracks.

It’s a piece of a tooth. I know because he spits it out without even looking at where it lands.

I say this a lot as a joke — Zyair whispers as he already fades away to hide — but your ass is grass, Hagen. G.R.A.S.S

Fuck.
Me.

“Hagen,” he says, but it doesn’t sound like my name, it sounds like a threat.

“Did you like it?” I blurt. Grey eyes glow with rage. “I’m not saying it again if you didn’t like it!”

Nikola snarls a curse as he invades my space, filling it with him and his ire, “Of course, I liked it. Now say it again.”

He liked it. He liked it.

A dopey smile turns my frown into a smile as pure euphoria floods my insides. It’s like the first time he’d told me I was good for him.

“Hagen,” Nikola snaps as his magic surges and lashes around the room in protest.

Outside, I hear a cry of alarm, but it’s drowned out as magic literally slams down around us. I feel it like colossal walls being thrown down by the heavens. It makes my spirit shake with fear.

The bed shakes. Actually, I’m pretty sure the entire house and maybe every house in the pack shakes as Nikola’s eyes glow, and this time, I know it’s not because of anything else but me that golden flecks sparkle within those purple irises.

“Say. It. Again.”

“Sir,” I breathe out, and fuck, it feels even better this time.

Sir. My Sir.

Sir.

Nikola releases a rushed breath, finally allowing himself to breathe. Now that he is, he makes up for lost time, breathing in fast as his chest contracts with each strained intake.

Above, through the fraying cracks of the walls around us, thunder booms in the air with a deafening clap that makes me jerk. It’s worse than when we first mated, it sounds like heaven is literally opening up because Nikola is prying the gates open with his bare hands.

I sink back, but Nik doesn’t let me slip free, he keeps his grip on my chin firm as he stares down at me.

He doesn’t speak, but through our bond, I can hear the millions of thoughts skittering through his mind. Ones of excitement and shock, pure glee, twisted claim and arousal, and pure, overwhelming want.

The desire is the strongest, and its blinding as it seems into my side of the bond, crawling over to fill me with more of him. I welcome it eagerly.

“Again,” Nikola demands and I almost don’t want to give it to him just yet, but more than that, I do.

“…Sir,” I whisper, but it turns into a moan as Nikola’s magic slides over my balls in a tender touch.

The room flips around us.

The floor becomes the ceiling, and the ceiling the floor, but thankfully, the best remains, and nothing falls. It all remains stuck in place before the room twists again.

Something strains. Something loud and deep that I can’t hear myself but feel, and I only do because Nikola’s magic tweaking inside of me.

It takes me a while to realise its the core of the Earth resisting his flaring magic.

What the fuck did I do…

“Again, pup,” he growls through his canines, and I almost cum on the spot.

“No,” I find myself saying instead.

Nikola’s gaze turns murderous, and shit— I’m really going to cum.

Thunderstorms brew within Nikola’s gaze and in the sky above as lightning cracks in warning. I don’t get a chance to listen to it as magic wraps around my balls and squeezes until I whimper.

“Hagen…” Nikola whispers gently while he breathes me in. “This is one time that I promise you… you do not want to test me.”

Oh, but I did.

I really really really fucking did because I don’t think I’ve ever been as attracted to Nikola as I am right now, and I’m always losing my shit for the guy.

“I said no.”

The scary multicoloured eyes return, but I don’t let myself buckle. “I’m not saying it again until you give me what I asked for several times now.”

The air becomes very still then.

The thunder above stops, the shaking settles, and there’s nothing.

“Is that so?” He breathes into the quiet.

I gulp and force myself to nod.

Nikola watches me until a wicked smile stretches over his canines, and he laughs— actually laughs.

My heart sinks as the manic sound fills the room, merging with the thunder that begins to boom like a rapid drum. It beats the same tune as my racing heart.

“You want me to fuck you?” He asks as he pushes his fallen strands from his face. “Very well. I’ll fuck you.”

Nikola smiles with every single one of his teeth.

“I’ll fuck the insolence out of you, brat… and then, I’ll take my pup for another round.”

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That’s it.
That’s the A/N and I think that says it all