Damon’s P.O.V

When I open my eyes, I’m greeted by the early morning’s light that pours in from the small opening between the closed curtains that Will left purposefully every night.

Today the room was coated in a soft pink that I’m sure the sky mirrored, one that made the still space appear slightly more whimsical than usual.

Closing my eyes, I inhale Will’s scent deeply, letting myself enjoy that intoxicating mix of cranberries and honeysuckle that had a joyous hum escaping me. Will shifts slightly from behind me, his smaller frame cuddled my larger one from behind, immersing me in his warmth and love.

I bring the hand Will had on my chest to my lips and press a kiss to the inside of it before I reluctantly pull myself away from his arms and settle on the edge of the bed.

Will makes disgruntled noises against the sheets in what either could’ve been an attempt at ‘good morning’ or an appeal for me to return to bed. It didn’t matter which it was because before I could even begin a response, my mate had already rolled over and fallen back to sleep.

Chuckling gently to myself, I pick up my shirt from off the ground and tug it on before I stand and do the same with my sweats. I lift the covers back over Will and press another kiss to his shoulder before I head to the bathroom to make a start to my day.

Silently, I brush my teeth before dousing my face with ice-cold water that made me curse but it did its job to erase all my drowsiness. In the living room, I find Blaze still sleeping under the couch while Sassy sat patiently at the door with her usual air of displeasure and disgust when I came into view.

“Yeah, fuck you too,” I say over a yawn while I full the small kettle with water to boil.

Leaving that to take care of itself, I grab an apple and rinse it quickly before I get the keys and open the door for the ungrateful bitch. Closing it gently behind us, Sassy and I make our way out of the old packhouse and a little way into the forest, without so much as a glance at each other.

I turn before she could send me a glare that demanded privacy and took a few steps away from her. Biting into my apple, I watch blankly as the pack slowly begins to wake up, wolves and witches were making their way through the streets in the direction of whatever their days had in store for them.

I watch them as I do every morning, indulging in the habit I’d formed without knowing, noting to myself how some looked excited, others sad, some angry and almost all, tired. Our pack was very big, with too many members to count and I’d never made the effort to truly try and get know as many of them as I could before last year.

Now, I couldn’t help myself from noting the visible emotions of each that passed, while my mind thought of the ones that weren’t so obvious.

Sassy steps into the space beside me, looking up at me briefly to let me know she was done. “I should leave you out here, see if you last the night.” I say to her before I take the finishing bite of my apple.

She growls at me, flashing her canines at me so I do the same but it didn’t scare her as it first did. She knew by now that her owner’s boyfriend was not human-like him and I think that somehow only made her hate me more.

We make our way back to the suite where Sassy finds her bed immediately, giving her the finger I fill refill her water bowl and pour some food into her other before doing the same with Blaze’s. With the pets taken care of, I make myself a large cup of coffee and head back to my sleeping mate.

Resting the mug on my nightstand, I discard my shirt and slide back into bed. Will barely shifts while I pick up the awaiting brown, hardcover notebook from the corner of my nightstand and the pen on it.

Tugging on the silk bookmark, I open it to the fresh page that waited beside the full one I’d written in yesterday. I take in a deep breath and press the tip of the pen to the first line before my thoughts could over-complicate things.

Day 14,

It’s quieter today, my head and all the thoughts in it. I don’t feel so bad today, actually, I feel better I think. There’s nothing telling me I fucked everything up today and that’s definitely better.

Will got mad at me yesterday, I didn’t say the exact words but he heard them anyway. That’s what I feel bad about today mostly, it shouldn’t have taken Will for me to realise I didn’t mean it, I didn’t really want to leave again.

It was just a bad moment, a weak one. I’ve been getting those a lot lately but Will’s been helping me through them, Will’s been doing a lot.

I feel bad about that too. I brought him back to try and get him to love the pack, but all I’ve done is show him all my messed up parts. I want to do something nice for him, something to make him smile but he’s more focused on making me smile.

I’ve been trying to, but he knows when I’m forcing myself.

On Friday it’ll be a month since that night with Levi, I miss him and the others. I saw Hagen yesterday when I went to the market. We talked but not for long, but it was nice and he said to call him whenever.

I could tell he wanted to hug me, but he didn’t so I hugged him. It helped.

Will thinks I should try going to one of the pack training sessions, he said he’ll come to if that would help. It would, but I didn’t train with them even before I left so I don’t think it’s a good idea.

He thinks that’s exactly why I should go, to try to find the place with the pack I never had.

I knew he’s right, so I think I’m going to try it out.

Will releases a soft groan which breaks off into a yawn as he begins to wake up with, what was obviously, reluctance. He raises his head and looks at me, still half asleep and confused with his hair sticking out from all ends.

“Morning,” I greet with a smile as he looks around in clear confusion.

One of my favourite parts of my day will eternally be watching my mate try to wake up.

Will glances down at the book in my hands and falls back to the bed with a soft apology for disturbing me.

“I was done anyway,”

“How was it today?” Will asks despite how lethargic he clearly was.

“Good, easier,” I reply and he hums gently in response.

Will had been the one to suggest writing things down at the start of the day, at least whenever I felt like it. With how things had gone with Levi and then the morning after, I’d stumbled for a while trying to find my footing again.

It felt like all the progress I thought I made was erased in the span of one afternoon.

Since then I hadn’t seen much of my family and even though it helped, it hurt like hell. Will told me about the conversation he had with my parents and there was a part of me that wanted to tell him he was wrong, to go to them and tell them I wasn’t some fragile thing that needed space to mend myself.

… but I was.

The rest of me knew that I was, no matter how badly I didn’t want to be, and that was what kept me from trying to close the space that sat between me and my family. It was hard only seeing them sometimes, more times from run-ins than meeting for our dinners like I wanted to.

But as always, Will was there to hold me up when I felt like falling. He gave me the empty notebook and told me to try putting it all in there, whatever I thought or felt, whatever came out, to just put it in the notebook.

“After my incident,” Will started, his heart immediately thumping faster while he caressed the edges of the stack of notebooks in his hands, “I found a half-used book and just…. started writing it all down. It was how I dealt with it all.”

“Dealt with what?” I asked carefully, not wanting to spook him just as he started sharing this part of himself with me.

“My thoughts, my emotions… fears,” He listed softly, his voice barely above a whisper as he opened one of the books to flip through the pages full of written emotions layered over each other until it looked like scribbles. “I felt like I couldn’t say what I felt out loud, speaking it and putting it out there would make it too real, so this worked. I couldn’t see what I wrote so that made things easier, most of it is illegible since I started while I was still recovering, my eyesight was worse then, so I just wrote all over the pages… I just needed to get it out somehow.”

Resting a hand over his, I took hold of his hand with a firm grip to let him know that I was still here with him, even as he stared down the barrel of his past. Will clenched onto my hand while he tried to control his breathing, full eyes raising to mine with a silent word of thanks I heard through all the pain.

“You don’t write anymore,” I stated and he nodded while he blinks back his tears before they could fall.

“I don’t need to,” He said, his voice dripping with pride for himself, “Writing it down, putting it down into something physical made everything I felt become something smaller, something I could deal with. It’s all in these pages and closing the book, feels like I’m closing that door in my life. It may be hard to understand, but when things were so loud and overwhelming, this made it bearable for me.

I don’t need it anymore, but when I do, I know where to put it,” Will said with a weak smile while he brought himself closer to me. “This worked for me and I’m hoping, it will at least help you, even if it’s just a little bit. Do you want to give it a try?”

I started the very next day and though it was hard in the beginning, approaching the book became a little easier each day. Will never asked to see what I wrote though if he did, I didn’t think I’d say no, I had no reason to. He said one day, he wanted to share his with me, even if I couldn’t understand most of it.

I could only hope that I was ready if that day ever came.

Smiling to myself, I close the book in my hands and rest it on the nightstand before I refocus all my attention on watching my mate slowly come to. Will rolls onto his back with a groan, only to roll one more time to lie on his stomach. With his face buried in the pillow under him, he stretches his arms and legs out at every odd angle he could find while moaning his pleasure.

“That’s the spot,” He mumbles into the pillow as he shifts to hold both his legs against his back.

At the sound of my laughter, Will turns his head towards me and narrows one turquoise eye on me while still holding his pose. “Are you judging me Mr.Calderon?”

“No, I’m not,” I reply because I wasn’t, “I’m laughing at you.”

“I haven’t even been awake for five minutes and my boyfriend is making fun of me,” Will replies with a disappointed sigh. “Maybe I should go back to sleep, you don’t laugh at me there.”

“You were dreaming about me?” I question as he releases his legs and rolls back over until his body is curled into mine, his arms circling my waist. My entire body sizzles from the skin contact that set of fireworks in my chest and made my heart swell with happiness.

“Maybe,” Will replies while I run my hand down his smooth back, letting myself relax against the headboard. My smile only grows when Will’s body arches into my own, curling beautifully to follow the path my fingers were making down his back.

“If I wasn’t laughing at you, what was I doing?” I ask as I run my fingers over his hips, squeezing it gently before carrying on.

Casually, Will drapes his legs over my own, using his pointed toes to part my legs for him to almost straddle my right leg. With eyes packed with desire, he smiles up at me while he runs his leg against mine. “I could tell you that, but I think the question you should be asking is… what was I doing to you.”

My cock immediately hardens despite the way my cheeks heated as his words, and all their implications, settled in. Will’s smile grows to a smirk as he passes his fingers over my erection, his eyes never leaving mine while he caressed me through the fabric of my sweatpants that I now wish I took off alongside my shirt.

“Well,” Will prompts with a raised brow, “aren’t you going to ask me what it was that I was doing to you in my dreams? I’ll give you a hint, this was involved.” Will’s fingers wrap around my imprinted shaft and squeeze, eliciting a ragged groan from my lips as my body tenses against him.

“What…. were you doing to me in your dreams?” I manage after swallowing several times, each word succeeding to make my blush increase.

When Will hums with pleasure I realise that my hand had found its way to his ass which I was squeezing now, my fingers sinking in to pull him closer to me. “Mhmm,” Will hums as he ruts against me, his straining cock rubbing against my thigh while his fingers teased me relentlessly.

“We were in bed, just like we are now,” He begins with a fond smile as he closes his eyes as if caressing a beloved memory in his mind, “but there were a few differences.”

“Like what?” I ask breathlessly just as he slips his free hand down to stroke my balls with a featherlike touch that had my hips rising from the mattress.

“For one, that’s not where your hands were,” Will teases as he pushes his ass back into my hand making a growl pull from my lips. “I love it when you growl for me.”

“Should I rectify the situation and say sorry?” I reply sarcastically while I pull my hand away from his ass. Will immediately reaches back and takes hold of my wrist, the warning in his eyes making me chuckle. “Is that a no?”

“A very strong no,” He replies as he slides his fingers over mine and directs it back to ass, only this time he slips them under the thin material of his briefs. I let my fingers slip under before I sink them into a handful of his ass and barely reign in a growl at the feel of him.

“What else?” I grind out and Will rolls his lips on a moan that making me wet my lips, “What else Will.”

“I was between you legs,” He whispers, his blue eyes pinning me in my place, demanding I listened to every sinful word that came out of those tempting lips, “your hands were in my hair, making me take more and I wasn’t using just my hands.”

Not giving me a chance to digest his words, Will lowers him until his full lips meet the outline of my hardening cock. He peeks up at me through his lashes before he mouths me over the material.

“My Goddess,” I groan as my free hand finds his hair, my fingers grip his head as I roll my hips in a desperate search for more.

Will closes his eyes as he continues to lick and tease me to insanity, letting me hold him tight against me while he stole my pleasure while withholding it all the same.

“Damon,” Will moans against my cock and the muffled sound makes me leak.

“Yes,” I answer gruffly, forcing myself to loosen the grip I had on him.

Will pulls himself away from my crotch enough to slip himself between my legs, I spread them for him and he smiles wickedly as he dips his thumbs into the ends of my sweats and briefs to tug them down. Following his lead, I raise my hips and pulls it down my body until it’s free and I’m completely naked.

“If you don’t mind, I’m going to make my dream a reality,” Will says with a tone thick with arousal while his eyes focus on my erection that stood tall and pointed towards him, a bead of precum gathering at the top before it drips down.

Laying down between my legs, Will wraps hands around the base of my cock and brings his tongue out to collect my precum before it reached the sheets. I watch enraptured and way too close to cumming, as Will licks his lips at the taste before he wraps his lips around the swollen head and sucks.

“Fuck!” I groan as Will cradles my cock with that wet mouth of his that weakened my control with every passing moment.

“Tastes better than I remembered,” Will says once he pulls off, his hands still stroking me as he licks his lips, “and even better than it did in my dreams.”

Raising my throbbing erection with one hand, Will runs his tongue up the underside of my cock from the base to the tip. As I lift off the bed, he pushes me back down before doing it again and again, until I’m writing and stiff with the need for more.

I needed so much more.

“Will,” I growl and his eyes immediately meet mine while the scent of his arousal swells all around us, succeeding to make my mouth water while my canines dropped. “More,”

With his eyes still locked to mine, Will lowers his lips to my balls while his fingers continue to work my length. Thin fingers circle my base with a tight hold to produce the most delicious strokes while others circle my tip, teasing the head until all I could do was pant and feel.

Will licks at my balls, wetting them thoroughly before he blows gently against them making them tighten against me while I cry out my pleasure. “Nghh… o-oh fuck, Will!” Will doesn’t stop, instead, he sucks both my balls into his mouth making my toes curl as the need to cum surges, but his firm grip on my cock stopped any chance of that.

“Ahgh, Will!” I groan as he closes his eyes and sucks with soft moans of pleasure. I slip my fingers into his hair and keep him in place while I thrust up for him to take more and he does.

He fucking does…

With my balls filling his mouth, Will laps at the sensitive skin beneath with his tongue bringing me to the edge with no chance of avoiding the fall. My orgasm ricochets throughout my entire body, making me tense all over before my legs begin to tremble and I cum undone. My moans fill the room as Will continues to suck and lick while his fingers squeezed and stroked, taking every drop he could get from me.

Raising slowly, he licks his way back up my still throbbing cock, collecting my cum from his fingers with fluid flicks of his tongue that had me hard again in seconds.

“Hard again?” Will asks teasingly as he presses my length against his reddened cheeks. “Does that mean I get a second taste?”

“You’re trying to kill me,” I state making him laugh while his fingers continue to stroke me back to my full length.

“That wouldn’t be good for either of us,” Will says as he brings my cock to his mouth and slides the tip across his lips. “Are you going to cum for me again?”

Unable to manage a verbal response, I nod quickly making his smile widen.

“I want to taste it all,” He says before he parts his lips and swallows my cock.

“Ahhh!” I moan as my hips push off the bed pushing more of my length down his throat, Will moans his pleasure and closes his eyes while he takes it all.

Hollowing his cheeks, Will sucks my cock with a crippling suction that made me tremble and moan for him. As he takes more of my length, swallowing inch after fucking inch, he lets his hands fall away to grip my thighs for support.

I dig my own fingers into the sheets beside me as my talons extend, letting them sink into the mattress while Will works me over with that perfect mouth that brought me closer and closer to the edge.

A whimper pulls from me when he pulls himself off completely leaving my erection straining and desperate as it pulsed in his direction, when I open my eyes to look at him I find him stroking himself desperately while he panted above me. “You know I like it when you look at me while I sucking you off,” Will says against my cock, his eyes wild with pleasure and need while he thrust his hips frantically to meet his fist. “The face you make when you cum makes me too.”

Will sucks my cock back into his mouth now that my eyes were on him and there was no way I could look away as he filled his mouth with my cock while he pumped his own beneath him. The image, the feeling, the sounds and scents were all too much and my orgasm poured through me with an explosive force that made a growl tear from my lips.

Will shudders below me as he cums seconds after, his lips never stopping their maddening pull even as his eyes rolled back and he coated his fingers with his cum.

When Will pulls off my cock, I take his coated fingers into my mouth and suck each digit into my mouth, keeping my eyes pinned on him just like he wanted. “Damon,” Will whimpers as he watches me suck his cum from his fingers, swiping my tongue in between each while he pants with pleasure.

“Since you got your second taste,” I start when I release his finger but keep a hold of his wrist, “does this mean I can get one too?”

“You’re more than welcome to try Mr.Calderon,” Will says breathlessly, his eyes shimmering with excitement.

Unable to hold myself back for a moment longer, I pull him to me and crush my lips against his. We both moan at that glorious connection that I could never tire of, the one that made my toes curl and my cock pulse as it rubbed against Will’s in our heated embrace of tongues.

I could taste myself on his lips, my cum on his tongue was a mark of possession that had me holding my mate even tighter with the insistent need to taste it there every time I kissed him. Will, as always, came willingly and hungrily, kissing my back with equal ferocity and need as he rubbed himself against me desperately.

“I want you in me,” Will moans while rolling his hips perfectly. “I want you to fuck me so badly,”

“Fuck baby,” I groan as I wrap my hand around his cock making him whimper, “you’re driving me crazy.”

“I’ll drive you insane once I get you inside of me,” Will replies with a smirk before disappointment flickers through his eyes. “I’ll make the wait worth it, promise.”

Even though this was all new territory for me, I was sure that I was ready to take that step with Will whenever he would let me, I’d done all my research so I thought I was ready. But Will said it would still be some time before we could, he said we needed to prep him properly before he took me.

I almost wished I was smaller but I banished that stupid, fucking thought immediately.

So we were waiting, preparing, I saw it as a good thing because it gave me more time to practice the restraint I would need when the time came.

I couldn’t mark Will when we had sex unless he was at a place where he was okay with being alpha with me one day. Even if it was a thought for the future, I still had to think about it no matter how far or near it would be. I wouldn’t tie him to a role he didn’t want or was prepared for and I wouldn’t set the pack up for that sort of downfall if I marked him and he chose not to lead alongside me.

I wouldn’t be able to mark him until he was one hundred per cent sure that he didn’t just want me, but my world and all that came with it.

“That’s okay,” I reply as I smile up at him, “I want you begging when that day comes.”

“I’ll beg right now if that’s what you want,” He replies through clenched teeth making me chuckle lightly.

“Aren’t you the one who likes to make things last?” I question as I brush our lips together, taking the opportunity to sink my teeth into the alluring delicacy. “I want to make this last, so don’t cum until I say so.”

“And if I do?” Will challenges as he lifts his head for me to map out his skin with my tongue. I kiss my way down his sweet skin, biting in on his weak spots and delighting in the shiver that racked through his body when I did.

“I don’t mind if you do,” I say against his collarbone, “but I don’t plan to stop until I’m done with you.”

“Jesus,” Will moans as he nods against me, “Yes please,”

Leaning back, I raise my hand between us and press my fingers to his lips. Will’s eyes immediately flood with his arousal as he parts his lips to let the two digits in, leaving me to only watch, completely captivated as Will lets me use his mouth. His eyes never leave mine, even when he holds my hand still with his own to suck greedily on my fingers.

“You are so sexy,” I voice, confessing the only thought running through my mind now. I pull him closer, groaning when I’m awarded that addictive rush of pleasure that made my spine tingle and my toes curl every time our cocks pressed together. “So fucking sexy.”

I slide my fingers out of Will’s lips when they’re wet enough and bring them round him. I spread him open with my free hand making him gasp slightly as I run my fingers down his crack to circle his hole.

“Mhmm!” Will hums as I continue to tease the sensitive ring of nerves, my eyes focused on his every reaction. “Please,”

Tentatively, I press the tip of my index finger against his bud and leak profusely when he whines desperately, pushing back for more. Pushing in slowly, Will releases a satisfies groan at the instruction, his entire body trembling with pleasure.

“Ngh! That’s good,” He breathes out in short pants, parting his eyes to glance at me, “go deeper.”

Pushing my finger in slowly, I watch as Will moans above me, his hips jutting forth to drive our cocks together before he pushes back to take more until I was knuckle deep and panting desperately with him.

The sight of him, the fell of him… it made me heady with lust.

When I was sure he was okay, I withdraw my finger almost entirely before pushing back inside making him moan beautifully in response. My cock pulses in response as I begin to finger my mate who was unravelling at every thrust of my finger or hips. Curling my finger inside, I drive it in a little deeper making precum drip from Will’s cockhead like a faucet.

“Uhgn… j-just like that,” Will encourages as his fingers dig into my chest, his face crumpling with pleasure I only wanted to increase. “Ahh, a-another.”

When I add a second finger, Will’s eyes roll to the back of his head while he moans loudly above me. Every inch of him crumbling in my grasp as I slowly became more confident, encouraged by his whimpers and moans that grew the faster I went, the deeper I went. I pull my fingers back until the tips were barely in him and stretch them at his hole making him cry out.

“Ahhh! Damon!” Will moans as he sinks his teeth into his lips, he was barely hanging on which left little hope for me. “Nghh! M-More!”

With my mate fucking himself on my fingers while he rubbing our throbbing erections together, I didn’t stand a fucking chance of lasting any longer than he did.

My eyes drop from Will’s face to the hard, pink nipples before me and as I swipe my tongue over my lips, I don’t give myself the chance of talking myself out of this. Leaning forward, I pass my tongue over one of the hard nubs before I suck on it, letting my teeth scrape against it gently.

“Fuckkkk!” Will moans from above as he holds me to his chest, his hips moving faster to meet my finger and upwards thrusts. “I-I’m… ah, nugh… Damonnnn!”

Will’s orgasm is spectacular. Every cry and moan he made were like his lips on my cock, fucking flawless. He was turning me inside out with pleasure while I fucked him through it with my fingers, spreading the two digits at his rim before tunnelling them back into him. I sink my teeth into his nipple, the slight pain making him buck against me, dragging his cock against mine as we both came all over each other.

Sucking on his nipples, I let myself fall into the thick cloud of lust and desire that Will created. Even after we both settled from our orgasms, I couldn’t stop licking and biting his nipples, couldn’t stop fingering him while he cried above me and thrust back for more.

“D-Damon,” He whimpers, his fingers fisting my hair to pull me back enough to look at me.

We stare at one another silently, stare as I continue thrusting my fingers in and he continues rubbing our spent cocks together until he leans in and brings our lips together in one slow, inebriating kiss that makes my mind go blank and my soul glow with glee.

When we eventually part, Will sinks into me, all the tension leaving him as he relaxes against me with laboured breathes to match mine. I slowly ease my fingers from him trying to be careful, but he still whimpers at the loss before he hums softly and wraps his arms around me.

“That was perfect Damon,” He whispers into my neck, his smile brushing against my skin.

“Really?” I ask nervously and he nods against me. “I didn’t hurt you?”

It was one of my greatest fears with Will.

He was human and wasn’t as strong as werewolves, I had to be careful with him in all things but especially where sex was concerned. Then there was the fact that he was a man, until recently, I never saw that in my future and so I wanted to make sure all my late nights with Google hadn’t led me astray.

Will sits up enough to look me in my eyes, the pretty blues were lazy and blissed-out now and he offers me an easy smile to match.

“No Damon you did not hurt me,” He replies honestly. “You made me cum, twice. You did all the right things and made me even more excited about having you inside me, but you did not hurt me.”

“Okay,” I reply and try to ignore the blush that comes from his words.

“You are so cute,” Will coos making frown, I open my mouth to protest but he quiets me with a kiss and I let him as I pull him closer to me.

As Will and I lose ourselves in each other, I’m reminded of how lucky I was to have Will in my life, how lucky I was to have a mate so fucking perfect for me. It went beyond the bond, Will was loving and understanding in all things, and the sexiest thing I’d ever seen.

Moments like these came here and there, unprovoked and haphazardly, and never failed to make my breathing falter.

Will was my eternal blessing, one I’d cherish forever.

———————-

They’ve made my standards way too high.

Thoughts??????????

Did we like the smut? Did you enjoy it??? Thoughts on Will’s coping method, do you think it’ll work for Damon and do you want to see all he wrote???? I do.

I planned to update Master next, but I’m sticking on one scene so whenever I fix that, I’ll update that chapter.

Until next time,
Byeeeeeeee Humanssssssssss